The fair girl

The IT life is monotonous. You tend to sit in front of a computer and type things to create Excel sheets, code, more sheets, more code etc. So to break this I blog often, so that when I look back I remember events, things and most important people that I met in my life.

So here is someone worth mentioning.

Then one day, there is this new girl in office.

 Ok she is pretty. We all heard rumors about her even before she joined. Guys chat like girls in these cases and this spreads like wildfire and suddenly everybody knows about this new girl. 

The day she joined, I don't notice her. Maybe I am too busy with my computer watching CODE. Ya I was watching code and so I don't see her when she enters in the morning. 

Then in the afternoon I look at her and almost fall of my chair. The rumors are true. My friend who is sitting next to me who happens to be a girl laughs at my antics. I explain it to her that it is programmed in human beings and she did the same when a white firangi manager walked passed our cubicle. This friend minds her own business now.

The fair girl seems tall. She seems to be searching something. Just then my manager takes me to a meeting. Questions: Where does she stay? How old is she?  keep on popping inside my head.

She boards the company bus in the evening. I convince my friend (the same girl) to talk to her but she declines. Girls are jealous creatures. Next day she talks to her. The fair girl plans to do an MBA. I feel like .... 

Months pass by. The fair girl becomes my friend. Bad luck, she already seeing someone. Damn it, I say in my mind. I don't like her that much now. The girl becomes a good friend since my stupid liking is out of the way. 

The fair girl is spontaneous. She is funny and yet really fair. She is a good dancer too. The fair girl becomes my agony aunt. She is younger then me and offers me advice about relationships. I listen to her continuous innocent talks. She can keep on talking till the world ends. 

She decides to quit the company and do her MBA. We have a blast at her send -off. She goes ...

She finds new friends there. She seems happy. I wish her all the best and I know that she needs to work really hard there. She needs to stay focused on her career.

How to UNPYAR (UNLOVE the person you once loved)

According to Wikipedia, Love is defined as:
Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.



According to me,
UnLove or UnPyar is a process of being independent and getting out of Love.

Thanks for everything, now please LEAVE!

Yes, thanks for everything you did, but seriously I want you to leave me alone. You helped me when I needed you, thanks for all that but I can't remain thankful to you throughout my life.

Call me selfish but I believe I have paid all my dues. Now it seems that you only irritate me and have fun to see me hurt. I don't know why you do that. Yes I did hurt you before but I thought you forgave me for that as I did!

So you better stay out of my way.



An emotional outburst maybe. Now I think I will need to plan this out. Sometimes it is really OK to hurt people you don't like. Some friendships do get sore. So be it.

I really tried my best to adjust but now it seems all is over.

And what is it again?

A time to reflect what is going on in my life.

A new friend

When you are going through a really difficult time, God somehow sends his angels to save you. I was getting through a really tough time, and I thought it was over. My mom said you should see a doctor. I was abusive and was in seriously trouble.

My friends said I had gone crazy. I was drinking too much and was going home late. I was like Kurt Cobain blaming the people who really cared for me. I was delusional and suicidal just like Vincent Van Gogh. It was difficult, never thought I could go through this. I even started smoking which I hate like anything.

Then one day, there is this new girl in office. She sits next to me. I felt that she was really mean because I smiled at her and she totally ignored me. You don't do that when you are new in office. Also there were rumors about her among the girls. I tend to find the weak link among girls and get all information.

As time passed, she became the most hated girl in office. She found friends. But I still didn't speak to her. I remember saying Good Morning to all except her. Wanted to see her reaction, but it didn't come. It made me hate her even more. I felt she was acting smart just because she was experienced.

 Then one day a common friend introduced her to me. She smiled maybe for the first time in office. Then we began to talk. I then said Good Morning to her and she replied with Yelloz. I never heard it before from someone.

As time went by, we talked and talked more. Found out she was my age and felt she was really nice. She has the most wonderful eyes, hair and the thing she does :P.

I told her everything and she listened to each and every bit patiently. I know I am boring but she never showed it. At times she advised me as having experienced, someone who I never had, an adult who I can talk to.
I was amazed at her reasoning skills.

She also slapped me so many times (Chataak). But not with malicious intent. I make her angry sometimes, but know she won't stay angry long.

I owe a big thank you to her, she was the one who saved me from going insane. I left all my bad habits, few still remain, but I am working on it.



I must be really important to God, then why would he sent his angel to save me from darkness?
Thank you friend, I couldn't say this to you in person, you might feel I am a cry baby.
But I am thankful to you each and every day my new friend.

Wandering Soul

I have always wondered what exactly what I want to do in my life…. Sometimes there were no answers and sometimes they were much more than what I could do in a single life. Sometimes I wanted to settle down, not exactly now but yeah after some years and there are times when I want to fly like free bird, no boundaries to restrain me and hold me back.

 I would just wander around like a gypsy with no permanent destination but yeah endless temporary ones. Travel around the world, eat exotic food and meet many new people and make many new friends without hurrying up through any of these things.

Life isnt fair, it never has been. You can’t live a life of a free soul. Its more expensive than living a life of a rich. It’s easier to get things than to lose them forever. You can’t turn your back to worldly possessions so easily; it’s harder than u ever imagined. Everyone wants to have a family with all comforts around them, who would want to choose a life of a monk? See I told u, its difficult than being rich. Losing is always difficult.

Coming back to where I started what I wish to do in my life, well honestly I want to be a monk. Free from all relationships which bind you to live a life of a slave in this materialistic world. No, matter how much you work, it’s never enough and will never be. The greediness will always be there to pull me back to this world where I would populate it more, slog to get a dream house, compromise to build a happy family; just to leave them all behind when I die.

Just one question that keeps haunting me: why should I run behind things which I will eventually leave behind? Instead of making my life better, I should be working on soul rather. 

-- Contributed by a very close friend. Thanks again :)

Gardening

Sometimes you need to spend time with nature. So, here goes my effort. It is a money plant, what they call in India. The myth is that you have to steal a twig from somebody else if you have to grow your own money plant.

 Interestingly, the plant has grown tremendously during the rains. The roots look like hands.

I also have a red Rose plant. I lost a lot of roses to teenagers who would steal them during summer. Now, I am bit possessive about them so I mostly end up chasing those miscreants.

The season of roses is over.

Just got these snaps  from a friend. I hope you like it.

My Last post on this domain

This is my last post on this domain, I am moving to my new domain. Guys you still can comment and read my blog as usual.

I am 23

"Oh my God I will be late to work!" The first thought that came to my mind when I woke up today at 7:30 am. My bus to work leaves at 8:30 am sharp.

As I was brushing my teeth, I was also bathing. Multitasking in a weird way. Then came the breakfast. What I had I don't remember.

Landmark

Its official, I have been blogging for four years now.
Thank you, its possible because all of my friends in the Blogosphere, both young and old.


Keep commenting and keep Blogging!!

The Gift

One of my good friends is going to USA to study. What gift should I give her?

I am confused need help ASAP. Please suggest gifts..
Thank you in advance.

Peddling back to Life

I got my first bicycle when I was 1 year old. I don't remember what I did with it.But looking back at pictures, I guess I was happy.

Get over It !!

It seems a majority of the people around me are hurting. They all been unsuccessful in love.
When you breakup, the first thing you shouldn't do is think about it. I learnt it from my very close friend. You should do something else that really engages your mind. Maybe shopping for girls or playing an outdoor game like football for boys can be a good starting point. Be aware what your thinking.
Secondly learn to forgive. I believe it starts by just forgiving the one person that matters the most: YOU. We all make mistakes that's human. Just think about it, if everybody got their perfect match in first try, all nice girls might go to the stupid boys who are broke, poor and indecent.

Love and recognition is all we crave for. I would surely be a pure hypocrite if I say that a breakup never hurt me, because it does. It takes practice. Learn from every breakup. That's my Funda. It will hurt a day or two, but if you don't recover from it say even after a month, its time to get help. Help maybe from your close friends or family members (please keep out parents, they don't need to know).
BEST FIND SOMEONE ELSE AND QUICK....

Love someone who loves You for the person You are. Who forgives your mistakes, takes care of you and is a good human being......and the one who broke your heart, tell him to ...................(Fill as appropriate).

A promise!!

I promise to change:
To wake up Early..
To Exercise daily..
To take the stairs, not the lift..
To Run aimlessly...
To Call old friends...
To say sorry to those I did wrong..
To look after my plants better and see them grow..
To say Thank you to my Teachers...
To respect and care More..
To Play with my friends....
To Learn to say Please...
To Learn to say to the other, "Yes you are right. I am wrong!"
To Respect my Friends and to learn that they really matter above many things....
To Turn to those behind me in queue and say, If you are in a hurry please go ahead...
To be Humble and to learn to give back to society....

God Help me or I will have to do it all myself, one thing at a time..

She!!

In my childhood I really hated the woman called "EVE". Eve tempted ADAM to sin, so she was to be blamed, for the work given to as punishment here on Earth. How would I have enjoyed PARADISE. But that was way back in the first standard!! I really don't hate EVE now.

Dead and Gone

My exams are finally over. I really gave a lot of exams and I am proud of it.

But now my student life is over !! Now I will have to work !

Its a challenge and I am up to to the challenge .COME ON!!!!!!!!!!

Me and Myself..

Inspired by Aditi I will try to write something about myself....

First of all I am really a emotional person, gets hurt easily. But I hardly show it to people, I guess that's my strength. I love helping others and my constant effort goes in doing good. But people doubt my intentions many times, maybe they are not used to someone doing something good for them.

I really hate people who are jealous. I don't know but that is the only thing that makes me angry.

I can't remember my last fight though maybe about 10 years ago I thrashed a guy called Bhushan in my class back in school days and made him sit inside a thrash can. But after that I hardly had a fight with anyone else, all rest, were just petty fights.


I love people. I believe making friends wherever I go. But I trust only a few. I will call myself and extrovert. I do have a great sense of Humor and I am a Dreamer. I can dream anytime in a day for minutes at a stretch.


I am a bit thin but highly energetic, I hardly get tired I don't know the reason for this. I wake up early and go for jogging and then sleep again ! That's silly I know bit it has become a routine.


One thing I can do without is MUSIC. I love trance, hip hop and sometimes soft Indian love songs.



Sometimes I ponder why did I did some many mistakes and how others managed to hurt me.  But I have a secret place where I can just forget everything. Its the most beautiful place in the world.


With regards to love, I know nothing about it. Just minor crushes. I do have friends who are girls but I tend to treat them as boys. They get so angry with me.

Plus I am a bit spiritual.....I do believe in HIM........

The secret of my Life......

Ever wondered why you live such a miserable life, while others have a life to die for?

Man I used to think the same. Every day of my life was spent in cursing myself , why I can't be smart? perform well in academics and sports,why beautiful girls kept themselves away from me, why I am such a loser?.WHY I CAN'T BE SOMEBODY?